February 2011
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Question
Why are my mind and body so intent on destroying one another?
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January 2011
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The truth will set you free. But first, it will piss you off.
– Gloria Steinem
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Yank
Got some more dentistry done it hurts like no other. I was on a brief hiatus because apparently entire campus-wide internet blackouts are not an issue that my school deals with in a timely matter. Anyways here I am! At the movies yesterday I had Mike & Ikes and pop-corn. My hair is still falling out. I’m on some painkillers from my teeth, and about to go out and do some drunken things....
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I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.
– Sylvia Plath
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Yawn
I’m now at school and positively beat. Moving back into my dorm was exhausting! I wish I had more to say, but I don’t really. Hope everything is honky-dory for you all.
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I breathe in slowly. Food is life. I exhale, take another breath. Food is life....
– Wintergirls, Laurie Halse Anderson
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A Note to Remember
Food is love, food is life.
Sometimes I learn best by remembering. I have so many memories.
There’s that warm happy feeling in my belly I used to get, when my mom made me a favorite dish after swim practice. It was simple, a quesadilla and a can of Campbells soup, but it tasted like love.
Once on Hanukkah I was at my dad’s house. I think I was eight. We were supposed to go to a...
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People see me in the suit and they know I’m not fooling anyone, they know...
– Ricky Gervais
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Negativity
I am angry and anxious. My body and mind are totally disconnected. I feel abandoned. The future doesn’t look bright, and if I were to see myself in the mirror, I don’t think I’d recognize the monster of a girl I’d see.
Or maybe I’m just tired.
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Beware of seriousness: it is a form of stupidity
– Alexander Waugh
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bubbles
Well family, if you are going to make me eat that’s fine. I know you don’t care that I can not mentally cope with the thought of myself 10 lbs. heavier. But, you might care about the fact that your force-feeding has wrecked my stomach and made me ridiculously gassy and it’s family TV time.
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You were carved from bone, but your heart is just sand.
– The Big Picture, Bright Eyes
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Jerry
My whole family is watching Seinfeld after dinner. Elaine and Jerry have gained weight from eating non-fat yogurt and my whole family is so tense and glancing over at me. It’s ok family, I only run out of the room screaming at the mention of weight gain 96% of the time.
On Friday I’m headed to DC to visit friends and family. I am very excited.
I am getting weirder by the second, I...